I have often thought of you like the girl sitting behind me in the theater, predicting what is going to happen next. My girlfriend tries to do that, but mostly it is just a guess, and usually wrong.
Actually, the message, that you should do good because that is what God wants, is just the elders trying to frighten their followers to make them behave. My mother would say “..because I said so!”, but that does not quite carry the same weight as it would if it came from a mysterious supreme being.
Did you drop out of school before they taught reading?