Sarah's Scribbles by Sarah Andersen for February 06, 2021

::Perspective of an bachelor guy in his 40s who went through grad school and ended up a security guard and failed to finish his novel::“Meh, there’s beer and curry, then a good book with some nice English pipe tobacco. I’d say it all came together well enough for me.”

It’s only a failure to finish the novel if you don’t do it before you die…

Success could never happen, accidents happen every day, even if you are a child. So, the problem isn’t being young and feeling like you haven’t accomplished something. It’s being alive and feeling that if your life ends today, you have simply wasted it.

I know this feeling. You just have to take it a day at a time, otherwise you’ll overwhelm yourself.

I’m closer to the end of that bumpy road than a 20 year old and if life has taught anything it is just be grateful for the opportunity, don’t dwell on regrets and find joy in the little things. You don’t have to be an ASTOUNDING publicly known person with tremendous achievements and laureates to have a successful life.

DISCLAIMER:

Artist’s rendering only.

An actual 20-year-old would have their phone out and be calling for an Uber…

Thank you. I sent this to my kids.

I’m much more than 20, but still no major accomplishments. However, I still hope to achieve something somehow someday somewhere.

I kind of thought the 20 yo had a nice down curving path of “accomplishments” because the milestones are kind of mapped out and everyone is pushing them forward to reach those goals (or working along with them).

And then there’s the first “mid life” crisis when all the “I’m suppose to/obligated to/it’s my duty to accomplish things are done” when they realize what they really “want” out of life – versus the “you are obligated to want” things.And then comes the realization that since they haven’t been working towards those “what I really want” things since the beginning, they may never achieve them. They watch others get the “wonderful goodness” they thought they would get.

And that puts them at the “cross roads”. To accept that they will do things in life they enjoy doing but will never really be good at/accomplish and start walking OR do nothing, stand still, bemoan a life of “worthlessness and failure” and watch everyone else move along their paths — perhaps never really being happy.

I highly suggest waiting for the Devil to show up at midnight and get a good contractual agreement for a life filled with the kind of “failure” that consists of happy mediocrity doing things you love and enjoy surrounded by family and friends (and the comfort and company of furry friends).

What’s even sadder is if you’re my age (use your imagination) and in the same position.

The do do do, the da da da, failing forward everyday, quite successfully.

happy birthday to me :D